As requested

The immediate scene that followed my slip up text actually didn't happen until about an hour later when whoever was hanging out in our room had left. Kelly passive aggressively said in that indirect, this isn't important, i'm not even looking at you while I'm talking kind of way- if you have an issue with me just tell me.

Really? You expect me to go up and say- you talk too much. "Stop doing that, change your whole hyper personality please to suit my liking." No- you don't do that. So you deal with it and bitch to your friends and life goes on. That's how I deal with things at least. In all following conversations it's really difficult to try and amend my misstep when she counters with- I know you don't like me, it's ok.

ARG, how do you come back to that? It's true, but I want to like you, for my living sake. I might dislike you less if you were to stop it. Stop doing shit like keeping the lights on at 4 am and doing bullshit like taking webcam photos with some dude in our room while i'm trying to sleep and your piercing little hamster voice wakes me from my sleep. (I might be understanding if she were actually doing work- but I have photo evidence to the contrary) It was enough to make me dream about screaming at her in my sleep- a dream so realistic I then worried I'd further shoved my foot in my mouth the entire following day.

Following arguments stemmed from the fact that she offered me friendship and expected to be besties from our first meeting, while I came in guarded and expecting the worst, being that I need time to warm up to people and will then decide if I want to be friends. We have different methods of developing relationships as we have extremely different personalities and are just very different as people. I accept that, I recognize that- yet she refutes it every time. "Just go make friends. It's really not that hard" -For you maybe. "No, really- it's not that hard. Just go make friends. Everyone's hella chill here. Just say hi. That's what I did and now I have friends at like all the colleges. You should do that."

....It makes me want to strangle her. She has zero concept of what it's like to be crippled with introversion and seems to refuse that that's even possible for someone to have. Of course I can make friends, I should just go out there like her. If she can do it I can do it, right?

It's really hard talking to someone who refuses to accept the possibility that other may be different from her. It's like talking to a brick wall. All attempts to explain what happened and potentially amend for my terrible grievance (that she seriously should have just gotten over to begin with) just end up going in circles with her same rebottles. I give up.

I'm so screwed if she ever sees this blog. But i'm willing to take that risk for your entertainment. I'm just such a nice person like that :P