Invisible

Did you know I was invisible? I didn't really comprehend to just what extent the rest of the world was oblivious to my existence. In class I walked across the room to check my grades with the teacher. I had one idiot ask if I had just transfered. Nope, I'd been there the whole year. They then proceded to ask if I was absent a lot or something. Nope, I hadn't missed a single day. I'm quiet...does that completely get rid of my existance? It's so odd. I could tell many people were agreeing with the questions though, and it's not the first time I've been asked that in a class. Wonder what I can do with my amazing invisible abilities. . . .

My favorite comic :)

(sorry it's hard to read, so just just read below and look at the pictures)

Ooooooookay, zeeba neighba....Now you had it. Dis is all powerful, all- loving Box God. We pray to heem. He hate you.

IS THAT SO?

Yes! Me juss ask and he kill you face! So geeve up now!

I DON'T BELEIVE IN YOUR BOX GOD.

Wuuuh? Is you STOOpid? Now you so dead it not even funny! Oh let us PRAY.....

Ohhh all-powerful Box God.....ARISE and show you is all-powerful Box God of revengeness by chanting you War Song O' FURIOUS death.

I love you.....you love me.....we a happy fam-i-ly.....

Dat wasn't right song, Bob.

Me get dem confused.

<3

give in for your own good

Everyone is stubborn, but it's just not worth it. Don't be too proud to do something that's in your best interest. If you're forced to go to dinner at a place you hate instead of your favorite restaurant, that doesn't mean you can't make the best of it. If you're in a bad mood, being stubborn won't help you get your way any more than just enjoying whatever is happening. This happened to me so I refused to eat in defiance, but it didn't hurt anyone but myself. My parents saved money while I got hungrier, and when I finally gave in and stole some of my brother's food- it was good. Sometimes you just need to swallow your pride, get over yourself- and do what you know you should. The people who you're proving yourself to won't care, or think that you're giving in. In the end everyone will benefit. You have to think- who's winning here, and is it really worth it? Because chances are, probably not. <3

forgive

Forgive and forget, for life is too short.

You know that person that holds a grudge for something that isn't worth it? Most of the time i'm the person that they're mad at. It's never worth it. Maybe I just don't understand the importance of what's happening, but I just want to be happy. I hate fights, I really do. Maybe I have a selective memory and those fun times, when I lost my voice laughing or stayed up till 2 giggling. Those are what I remember. Not the time that so and so was mad at me for something, or when I was angry for a short time when a friend insulted me when they were having a bad day. It isn't important. I've been noticing that my life is filled with anger more than I realized. I wish it wasn't. I enjoy staying up late laughing with friends, and I want more of those moments to fill my life. Late nights complaining about people aren't a good use of my time. Where is my life reset button? ( probably behind my ear where i'll never find it)

self portrait

This is my self portrait. (It's from really far away)

Stones

They say people that live in glass houses sholdn't throw stones, but really- when is it ok to throw stones? It's really never ok to throw stones unless you happen to be trapped in a glass house. So then really, only people in glass houses should throw stones.
Now you may be thinking, what about throwing stones to skip them on a lake? NO! Please do not been the fish in the head. No one appreciates it. SO now you're thinking- what about large-ish puddles?There aren't any fish in there right? Again, NO! Now you must worry about splashing other people, and I really don't like nasty puddle water on my legs thank you very much. So I am officially changing this saying to say: "Only people trapped in glass houses should throw stones. "

Today I saw a dead butterfly. It made me sad.

Friends <3

What are friends really? I believe I have figured it out.
Really, they are just the people you know- that you are comphertable enough to call and say, let's go on an adventure! They are the people you share and create memories with. The dudes that you talk to. They tell you their problems and listen to yours. But mostly, they are the people that listen to your random ass thoughts without saying- what the hell!? or turning you into a mental hospitol. That is what makes you a friend truly.
Of course there are other things like being reliable, helping you out when you need assistance, or just wasting their time with you. And patients is a good addition too. My friends get pissed off often enough- so if you can be patient and know that they will get over it and you can continue to have all of those wonderfull qualities that make your friends your friend s :)

it's all good for something

Everything is good for something.

I enjoy music for more than one reason. You have to respect some artists because they use their publicity and their music to send out their message. Listen to the lyrics of songs. Daughters by John Mayor, Cookie Jar by Jack Johnson, Big Yellow Taxi by Counting Crows, If Everyone Cared by Nickelback, Dear Mr. President by Pink( just to name a few). I feel that I must respect these artists for using their fame to send a good message and alert the masses of what whatever knowledge they're trying to spread.

Movie directors are doing it to and I'd like to applaud them. Many directors have made movies about penguins to try and educate people on what may happen in the future. They've made it legal to drill for oil in Antarctica and that will kill out many penguin species. I've also noticed many bee movies coming out because of the bee crisis that's happening lately. There recently has been a big decline in the bee populations. You may not know it, but life entirely depends on bees, not just for flowers and honey but they pollinate all plants to give us fruit and vegetables and the like. If bees died out life on earth would cease in 6 years from their extinction.

But some artists are just....useless. Rap and most of pop and hip hop( for the most part) are all just pretty pointless. It's about sex drugs and voilence. There is no point in listening to the lyrics at all. But hey, it sounds good. So even the crap is good for something. In my opinion, everything is good for something.

YAYS

I love my friends. Sure- they all hate each other periodically. They fight and occasionally make up, but at one time or another they were friends with each other, and I was so lucky as to be dragged into the mix to create the screwed up web of people that I am honored to call my friends. It keeps shrinking as I find who are the people that are not just friends, but friends that I enjoy spending my time with. Somehow I am now left with people who seem to draw people to them. ( I hope to posses the same quality) Or maybe it's just me, and that's why I'm their friend.Actually, there's a good possibility that they're mad at me at this very moment for some reason or another. But they are so lucky as to have a friend like me, who may know more than they do.

When you look back on everything- 1/2 the time you can't even remember those fights, those arguments, or if you do- what the fight was over is no longer of relevance and reflecting on it- you realize it was a waste of time that you could have spent enjoying each others company instead arguing.

I know this because one day my dad told me, life is too short to be angry. And I took it to heart. I try to live my life that way. Because life is too short. No matter how many times I wish it were Friday when it's Tuesday- I will wish twice as many times for there to be more days in a week, and more hours in a day.

I always find it interesting to see the things you remember. All the disjointed snippets of memories. I often think- how strange is it to know that one day, I won't remember this moment ever happening. But then there are those bits that you can remember. Some are extremely irrelevant. They are taking up space for the memory of what your teacher was saying the other day about that thing on the test. But even so, I enjoy all my memories

I truly believe that every cloud has a silver lining. Silver may be my favorite color. All the bad things that happen usually do have something good come out of them, one way or another. (for example) I cut off my finger when I was 7. It's one of those snippet memories that I have. That was a terrible day. I just wanted a band aid and for it to be all better- but miserable is memorable, and now I have a story.

For everything that has happened- and everything that will inevitably happen one day or another, I'm happy. It could be so much worse, but it's not and so I'm lucky. ( Wishing someone good luck if they haven't said," wish me luck" will actually make them lucky)

Yes this is all mindless babbling- but you're the one who wanted to read the blog....which is just babbling anyways, so I hope you enjoyed my thoughts today <3

instincts, people!

Sports go against your instincts. I'm pretty sure that when a volleyball is flying at you, your instincts are to step aside, not to lunge for the flying object. So for everyone that isn't a superstar athlete, just know that your instincts are better than those who may excel at sports. If you were left out in the wilderness, you would survive because when a bear came- you would run! instead of sitting and waiting to see if you could beat it. ( ok that's an exaggeration....but it makes sense doesn't it?) There are a few sports that it would be good to excel at, like dodge ball or track. Those ones makes sense, however cruel they may be. But plenty just don't make sense.

The Rainging Tree

We all know that trees are magical, massive, majestic, and monumentous. They hold onto history and preserve the past. But did you know they can also prolong the present?

While walking to school , avoiding the puddles during a brief pause in the rain, I walked under a tree and was hit by a drop on the top of my head. I looked up to see more drops coming down towards me. I thought that it had begun to rain again because I could see the ripples in the puddles, but as I looked farther, no other puddles were disturbed by the rain. It only seemed to be under that tree. As I walked out from under it, the drops stopped. It wasn't raining, but when I looked back I saw that the tree was raining. It was the raining tree, and it was amazing. Officially my new favorite memory.

fireworks

The fireworks were amazing. Set off from the pier....they were perfect. The breeze blew away the smoke and the cold night sky was perfectly clear. Of course giant sparkly explosions in the sky are spectacular, but the finale blew my mind. It was the best yet. When they set off one after another, it had a firecracker effect. I loved it. When I was little it use to scare me. The noise can be powerful. But now it's the best part. During the finale there were so many going off at once that you could feel the noise. Adding to the beautiful visual display, it was accompanied by a sonic boom resonating after each explosion and vibrating in my chest and lingering in my ears. I felt like I had thoroughly experience them by not only seeing them, but hearing them and feeling them as well. Next year will hopefully be even better. ( not a bad picture for a phone camera i think) <3>

So nice i'm evil

Some things just don't make sense. People think I'm a bitch before they meet me. The rumors are terrible. All of them have a bit of truth I'll admit, but they're all completely exaggerated. And I don't care. I don't get mad when people talk abot me behind my back, because I know that it's what friends talk about with other friends. What else do you talk about? Since I do it too, I refuse to be a hypocrite. So I let them....but it gives people the wrong impression. So all my friends started off hating me. Then they get to know me, and see that I'm really nice. I'm so nice that people think I'm a bitch. How irnoic.

SPARKLY

We produce our own sparkles. It's what I've decided. Ever see someone with just one random sparkle on their forehead, nose, chin, or cheek? I just stop and giggle because it's so random. But of course, I am one step ahead of the face sparkle. My hands are always moist. Always have been...and now they make their own glitter! It's not like a little cut out piece of shiny material. It's more like that shiny powder. It's glitter on my palms, and I like it. Whenever I see my shiny palms, it makes me happy. Doesn't everyone wish they made their own sparkles? Well, you just might. <3

I decided

I decided. I decide a lot of things. Once I decide something, as far as I'm concerned, it's true. I have decided that I'm always right. No one believes this....but that's because they're wrong. When you decide, you get the power. Suddenly, you're in control because YOU have decided and now it's what you've decided to do. May be your life, or possibly just what to wear that morning. I like deciding. My ideas are better than everyone else's anyways :)

Christmas

Some parts of Christmas can be a bit.....ridiculous. I don't like waiting for presents, but it brings the family together. I hate having to think of things I want, but the dinner is always delicious. Many people don't have enough money to buy presents for everyone, but they get gifts as well. The weather is freezing cold, but then there's the fabulous smell of chimney smoke. And no other time of the year is my craving for hot cocoa and ginger bread cookies considered normal instead of bizarre. Personally I think the best thing of all are the lights. They're a huge waste of energy, BUT THEY'RE SO SHINY!

figure it out

People have called me abrasive, and the same day can tell me that no matter what they do they can't picture me being aggressive. I don't know if this is good or bad, but it doesn't matter. I'm pretty happy despite their views. the problem is, I'm not very tact full. I think that if there is a truth, it should be said. I don't get mad at really anything so I like to know what everyone thinks about me. someone may hate me, but I'd like to know that at least. So I forget that no everyone is like that. Whenever there's something someone has told me that they don't like about someone, something that person can fix so that more people like them, I try to tell them that. But they think I'm just criticising and they get mad and think I'm a bitch or something. it can be very difficult. People need to figure it out sometimes- for their own good!

Always better

For every moment there is in life, the next one will be better. Things always get better. I truly believe that at your best moment or worst moment, knowing that in the near future things will be improved, even in your happiest moment, makes life constantly improve.

Like dieting, I've lost a bunch of weight and people keep asking me how. I can't really give them an answer that helps. I think that all I did differently was change my thinking and my body followed. All the food I ate was just energy for the things I do- it's not fat. I know that when my foot is tapping it's burning calories and that laughing is the best exercise i could do for my abs. So for people looking for ways to lose weight, yes- diet and exercise help the most. But you can't do anything if all you think about are how many calories you consume and how they're going to add fat to your thighs. If u think that...then how does it help inspire you to be a new beautiful person?

I'm still working to my goal weight and after 40, 5 more is nothing. You should try it some times. It's fun to go shopping with the jeans in your size :)

happy

There are certain things that piss you off, but I won't list those because it would just force you to focus on them and find an enless more which would do me no good. So instead- I'll list everything that makes me happy or that I'm thankfull for. This instead makes you think of everything and find more things that are good with your life:

1)warm showers- don't care if it's 100 degrees or zero,that water had better burn
2)going to bed smelling yummy and without stubbles thanks to that shower
3)painting- could be a canvas, might be my foot. paint is fun to play with
4)waking up when it's dark and cold outside, but warm under your blanket, but this only works if you have time to sleep in
5)finishing you homework
6)good creme brule
7)waking up to the smell of bacon
8)no homework in all your classes
9)the day your period ends
10) taking off your bra at night( sry for all guys, u don't get this personal pleasure)
11) hot chocolate with marshmallows
12) a good hair day
13) being told you have no cavities
14) working and functioning normally- we take this one for granted for sure. The fact that you don't look like you're crying from sneezing so much every day- or that one nostril isn't clogged and you're not coughing all day. these are the worst things to not have every day
15)noticing a good smell for no reason, it just suddenly smells nice
16)a bug! I'm sorry for those bug-a-phobes but it's cool to just watch one do stuff, crawl around on your desk or something. it's neat.
17) an A on a test
18) making plans for the weekend with friends
19) new clothes
20) tutus
21)acting retarded and not caring
22)getting you computer back!!!!
23) breeze on a hot day
24)listening to the rain( preferably by a fire, definitly inside)
25)accomplishing a goal you set for youself( reaching that far to get the remote counts too)
the list goes on but u'll get bored of it after a while

The little things

I have found that without a doubt that people are happier if they get joy from the little things in life instead of just the big. Everyone is happy about getting a check on your birthday, but not everyone is happy that it's cool that day during PE. Some people are ecstatic about the fact that they are have corn for dinner that night.

And so I add to my list of little things to be happy about: the ability to use your face. I went to the dentist and my face was numb for at least 4 hours. That got old fast. It's amazing the amount of things you need your lips for. To smile for one. A crooked 1/2 smile does nothing but make everyone else laugh. Or drinking from a straw. My gawd that took a lot of concentration to preform this simple everyday act.

This isn't the first time something like this has happened either. Ever tried getting up in the morning? Next time thank your neck for not being broken. I couldn't move my head for a while and once you're down- you're down. Turn your head right now and look at the wall. Now be thankful that you didn't have to get up and turn your entire body to do that- just your neck.

I try to be thankful of these little things but I quite often forget. But then I'm reminded the next time asthma prevents me from breathing, or hiccups decide to visit, or a cough comes a' knocking. So if these little things make you happy- you're entire day will be better- better than that idiot's who's waiting for a check in the mail. You can be happy that a lady bug landed on you that morning <3

change of pace

Does anyone else switch friends every few years? I will be best friends with someone for about 2 years and then something goes wrong. Through that time I'll be making new friends so I won't really mind when I lose one. But....after that time they bug me. It can happen in one week- they are my best friends and I can't wait to talk to them and then all of a sudden I can't stand them. Can't get me far enough away. Eventually I'll find someone that I click with and we'll stay friends. But until then, everyone gets a 2 year trial period.

It only happens to my best friends. Everyone else I consider a friend but I never really liked them so they can't all of a sudden start bugging me- and we would never hang out so there really never is a problem. And I am constantly finding new people to hang out with so I am affected a little by each person I hang out with most. Mostly it affects my speech patters, what words I use, which words get emphasised, ect.Sometimes my views on life, or if I act sillier or immature. Am the wild one in the group so I emphasise it or am I the quiet one that doesn't bother to break out of that role. It depends.

If anyone ever tells you that they're friends don't affect them and who they are- it's because they have no friends. Otherwise it's a lie. I say I can't stay mad at someone for more that a day, but apparently it's a lie. Or maybe it's just not anger- it's been reduced to a dislike of that person that causes avoidance.

I'm working on not pissing people off and not pissing them off. I shouldn't brun my bridges. Sometimes you want to turn around but then there's this giant river hole thing like the grand canyon left of you friends and you're screwed.....if only there were jet packs we wouldn;t have this problem

Drunk Girraf

I had a birthday party not too long ago. My Uncle Karen had a tattoo of a giraffe on her ankle, and it inspired me to draw one of my own on my foot. To copy it correctly I had to do it upside down on my foot instead of rightside up on my ankle- but you do the best you can at the present moment. So I copied my awesome giraffe and liked it upsidedown-ness. It then became the drunk girraf. Because I had my awesome foot art, everyone else needed on too. Now I have all these people with my foot art :) ((copy cats!, but I guess I was the first to copy the orignal so it's ok))

random fun

Some things are embarrising no matter what you do about them. They can be horrible, unless you decide to make them fun.
Take the sexy hat. It's a horrible huge hideous hat that you would expect a grandma to wear to tea or something. So we bought some and decided they were totally awesome. We praised our hideous sexy hats and wore them with pride, having fun laughing at the stupidity of it all.
How bout the purple socks. Guys don't like to wear purple soc(they are now destroyed if anyone is wondering...don't walk barefoot in socks). But if your feet start to bleed from the evil new flip flops and it's too hot to walk on the ground barfoot, then you need to DO something, and so you get purple socks! that left me w/ just converse, so w/o the socks i took off one shoe. It probably goes w/o saying but we looked ridiculous, so therefor had fun laughing and being completely retarded. Next time i think i need just one striped knee high sock to complete the look.
I start high school soon and hopefully looking at things in this kind of light will make it all tolerable. Each year has been better than the last so far- so nexy year won't be an exception. And by the time school starts I'll have my friends back from band camp. Each new year of school is just one year closer to not having to go back to school( that ttly made sense in my head, not sure if it translated) <3>

bored for fun

I was very bored one day waiting for my friends so i started to paint while waiting for my friends to come over. You don't have to be good at painting do it. it's just really fun. I have a lot of paintings all over my room. It's fun. I think you should go out and paint something today, and painting your foot is ok too if that's the only surface you can find at the time. Just do something besides watching TV