figure it out

People have called me abrasive, and the same day can tell me that no matter what they do they can't picture me being aggressive. I don't know if this is good or bad, but it doesn't matter. I'm pretty happy despite their views. the problem is, I'm not very tact full. I think that if there is a truth, it should be said. I don't get mad at really anything so I like to know what everyone thinks about me. someone may hate me, but I'd like to know that at least. So I forget that no everyone is like that. Whenever there's something someone has told me that they don't like about someone, something that person can fix so that more people like them, I try to tell them that. But they think I'm just criticising and they get mad and think I'm a bitch or something. it can be very difficult. People need to figure it out sometimes- for their own good!

Always better

For every moment there is in life, the next one will be better. Things always get better. I truly believe that at your best moment or worst moment, knowing that in the near future things will be improved, even in your happiest moment, makes life constantly improve.

Like dieting, I've lost a bunch of weight and people keep asking me how. I can't really give them an answer that helps. I think that all I did differently was change my thinking and my body followed. All the food I ate was just energy for the things I do- it's not fat. I know that when my foot is tapping it's burning calories and that laughing is the best exercise i could do for my abs. So for people looking for ways to lose weight, yes- diet and exercise help the most. But you can't do anything if all you think about are how many calories you consume and how they're going to add fat to your thighs. If u think that...then how does it help inspire you to be a new beautiful person?

I'm still working to my goal weight and after 40, 5 more is nothing. You should try it some times. It's fun to go shopping with the jeans in your size :)

happy

There are certain things that piss you off, but I won't list those because it would just force you to focus on them and find an enless more which would do me no good. So instead- I'll list everything that makes me happy or that I'm thankfull for. This instead makes you think of everything and find more things that are good with your life:

1)warm showers- don't care if it's 100 degrees or zero,that water had better burn
2)going to bed smelling yummy and without stubbles thanks to that shower
3)painting- could be a canvas, might be my foot. paint is fun to play with
4)waking up when it's dark and cold outside, but warm under your blanket, but this only works if you have time to sleep in
5)finishing you homework
6)good creme brule
7)waking up to the smell of bacon
8)no homework in all your classes
9)the day your period ends
10) taking off your bra at night( sry for all guys, u don't get this personal pleasure)
11) hot chocolate with marshmallows
12) a good hair day
13) being told you have no cavities
14) working and functioning normally- we take this one for granted for sure. The fact that you don't look like you're crying from sneezing so much every day- or that one nostril isn't clogged and you're not coughing all day. these are the worst things to not have every day
15)noticing a good smell for no reason, it just suddenly smells nice
16)a bug! I'm sorry for those bug-a-phobes but it's cool to just watch one do stuff, crawl around on your desk or something. it's neat.
17) an A on a test
18) making plans for the weekend with friends
19) new clothes
20) tutus
21)acting retarded and not caring
22)getting you computer back!!!!
23) breeze on a hot day
24)listening to the rain( preferably by a fire, definitly inside)
25)accomplishing a goal you set for youself( reaching that far to get the remote counts too)
the list goes on but u'll get bored of it after a while

The little things

I have found that without a doubt that people are happier if they get joy from the little things in life instead of just the big. Everyone is happy about getting a check on your birthday, but not everyone is happy that it's cool that day during PE. Some people are ecstatic about the fact that they are have corn for dinner that night.

And so I add to my list of little things to be happy about: the ability to use your face. I went to the dentist and my face was numb for at least 4 hours. That got old fast. It's amazing the amount of things you need your lips for. To smile for one. A crooked 1/2 smile does nothing but make everyone else laugh. Or drinking from a straw. My gawd that took a lot of concentration to preform this simple everyday act.

This isn't the first time something like this has happened either. Ever tried getting up in the morning? Next time thank your neck for not being broken. I couldn't move my head for a while and once you're down- you're down. Turn your head right now and look at the wall. Now be thankful that you didn't have to get up and turn your entire body to do that- just your neck.

I try to be thankful of these little things but I quite often forget. But then I'm reminded the next time asthma prevents me from breathing, or hiccups decide to visit, or a cough comes a' knocking. So if these little things make you happy- you're entire day will be better- better than that idiot's who's waiting for a check in the mail. You can be happy that a lady bug landed on you that morning <3

change of pace

Does anyone else switch friends every few years? I will be best friends with someone for about 2 years and then something goes wrong. Through that time I'll be making new friends so I won't really mind when I lose one. But....after that time they bug me. It can happen in one week- they are my best friends and I can't wait to talk to them and then all of a sudden I can't stand them. Can't get me far enough away. Eventually I'll find someone that I click with and we'll stay friends. But until then, everyone gets a 2 year trial period.

It only happens to my best friends. Everyone else I consider a friend but I never really liked them so they can't all of a sudden start bugging me- and we would never hang out so there really never is a problem. And I am constantly finding new people to hang out with so I am affected a little by each person I hang out with most. Mostly it affects my speech patters, what words I use, which words get emphasised, ect.Sometimes my views on life, or if I act sillier or immature. Am the wild one in the group so I emphasise it or am I the quiet one that doesn't bother to break out of that role. It depends.

If anyone ever tells you that they're friends don't affect them and who they are- it's because they have no friends. Otherwise it's a lie. I say I can't stay mad at someone for more that a day, but apparently it's a lie. Or maybe it's just not anger- it's been reduced to a dislike of that person that causes avoidance.

I'm working on not pissing people off and not pissing them off. I shouldn't brun my bridges. Sometimes you want to turn around but then there's this giant river hole thing like the grand canyon left of you friends and you're screwed.....if only there were jet packs we wouldn;t have this problem

Drunk Girraf

I had a birthday party not too long ago. My Uncle Karen had a tattoo of a giraffe on her ankle, and it inspired me to draw one of my own on my foot. To copy it correctly I had to do it upside down on my foot instead of rightside up on my ankle- but you do the best you can at the present moment. So I copied my awesome giraffe and liked it upsidedown-ness. It then became the drunk girraf. Because I had my awesome foot art, everyone else needed on too. Now I have all these people with my foot art :) ((copy cats!, but I guess I was the first to copy the orignal so it's ok))

random fun

Some things are embarrising no matter what you do about them. They can be horrible, unless you decide to make them fun.
Take the sexy hat. It's a horrible huge hideous hat that you would expect a grandma to wear to tea or something. So we bought some and decided they were totally awesome. We praised our hideous sexy hats and wore them with pride, having fun laughing at the stupidity of it all.
How bout the purple socks. Guys don't like to wear purple soc(they are now destroyed if anyone is wondering...don't walk barefoot in socks). But if your feet start to bleed from the evil new flip flops and it's too hot to walk on the ground barfoot, then you need to DO something, and so you get purple socks! that left me w/ just converse, so w/o the socks i took off one shoe. It probably goes w/o saying but we looked ridiculous, so therefor had fun laughing and being completely retarded. Next time i think i need just one striped knee high sock to complete the look.
I start high school soon and hopefully looking at things in this kind of light will make it all tolerable. Each year has been better than the last so far- so nexy year won't be an exception. And by the time school starts I'll have my friends back from band camp. Each new year of school is just one year closer to not having to go back to school( that ttly made sense in my head, not sure if it translated) <3>

bored for fun

I was very bored one day waiting for my friends so i started to paint while waiting for my friends to come over. You don't have to be good at painting do it. it's just really fun. I have a lot of paintings all over my room. It's fun. I think you should go out and paint something today, and painting your foot is ok too if that's the only surface you can find at the time. Just do something besides watching TV